The girl in the mirror isn’t me

This image…this reflection…this person. She isn’t who I see in my head. Who I see in my head is someone much different and much uglier, and completely mismatches what I see in the reflective oval.

How well can you visualize yourself in your mind? Do you see your distinctive features as clearly as you see them in the mirror? Do you see your beauty or your flaws, freckles, imperfections, and can you see the structure and outline of your face, without looking in the mirror? Is what you see in your mind, exactly what you see in the mirror?

The way I picture myself is not what or who I see in the mirror. Isn’t it strange? How is it, the young woman I see in the mirror is not what I see in my mind. It’s like I am unable to convince myself that the woman in the mirror is me. But why do I see someone else?

I picture a younger version of myself, with short curly black hair, wearing glasses, and make-up to cover up the enormous and embarrassing acne scars on my chin.

I picture a younger version of myself, who is a little chunky. She has wide shoulders, with a slim lower back, and narrow legs.

I picture a younger version of myself, who has short prickly and dark hairs above her lip with skin topped with redness and coated with dry flakes.

I picture someone, who has a flabby and lose double neck, and pudgy eyeballs.

Who is this girl? I certainly don’t see her in the mirror. The girl I see in the mirror is appealing. She doesn’t have black hair. Nor does she have acne scars on her chin. She isn’t chunky, and she doesn’t have a flabby neck. Why am I not able to see my own beauty?