Looking for a space to fit in
Typical day, racing thoughts. Why am I not enough?
I keep reminiscing to a negative state of mind. Oh, it’s familiar. I’ve been there plenty.
As soon as I feel inspired, the enemy reminds me of my faults.
It’s me. I’m the enemy. I do it to myself.
I keep thinking everyone who knows me dislikes me for something.
I try my best to stay focused and limit impulsiveness and wit; but sometimes I slip.
And I find myself in a space I don’t want to be. I’m in this space for days…until the void is filled with heart.
I search for closure and familiarity. I’ve been let down.
I have been unfortunate.
I am still looking for a space to fit in.